all I knew, all I didn’t: A Remembrance

Jordana Ash, March 31, 2025

But I didn’t know you had a top brand blender.

For fruit smoothies or maybe, even, margaritas?

For company in your apartment, sweet and luscious?

Or just yourself, to make it through the loneliness of lockdown?

I didn’t know about your climbing gym membership

Or your two pairs of climbing shoes, your harness, and all that rope.

I didn’t know you had professionally framed your photos from those trips; Catalina,

Yosemite, the Pinnacles.

Or had a guidebook to Thailand.

Or that bucket of emergency supplies in case of earthquakes.

Or the flak jacket.

But I did know about your precious pinecones, seashells, books, and journals.

And the photo of grandpa that was with you on the day you left this earth.

A life lived and forever, crushingly lost. Experiences deep and disappeared. Memories

made, and vanished.

Love held and held onto.